One graduate school guy's musings about school, life, and robotics.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Wow.



More than a year since I've posted here.

Let's see - I'm still in school, almost done with my MS.

I'm having the damnedest time choosing between going to work or getting my PhD.

I've made both bad and good choices when it comes to women - I'm single now, but not really looking.

Life in Tampa is... tolerable? I wish it was better, but hey - I'm doing okay.

Sometimes, the choices I've made don't seem worth it. Sometimes, I just want to drop it all and run off to see the world, do odd, easy jobs, and help people one at a time. Sometimes, the grand plan doesn't seem so grand or even accessible.

Sometimes, I just want to be Night Owl, not Ozymandias. (Oh god, self-pitying Watchmen reference!)

And here I say I don't understand emo. =P

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Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Welp.



Sarah and I broke up. Now we're going to dinner.

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Thursday, March 08, 2007

Been a while

Yes I'm alive.

No I'm busy.

I have my website finally "updated" - http://mind-melt.com/

Let me know what you think. =D

How's everyone else doing?

I feel: Overworked!

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Sunday, December 24, 2006

Thin Blue Flame



A song about faith and heaven - dark and soulful.

Lyrics:

Thin Blue Flame
by: Josh Ritter

I became a thin blue flame
Polished on a mountain range
And over hills and fields I flew
Wrapped up in a royal blue
I flew over Royal City last night
A bullfighter on the horns of a new moon's light
Caesar¹s ghost I saw the war-time tides
The prince of Denmark¹s father still and quiet
And the whole world was looking to get drowned
Trees were a fist shaking themselves at the clouds
I looked over curtains and it was then that I knew
Only a full house gonna make it through

I became a thin blue wire
That held the world above the fire
And so it was I saw behind
Heaven's just a thin blue line
If God's up there he's in a cold dark room
The heavenly host are just the cold dark moons
He bent down and made the world in seven days
And ever since he's been a'walking away
Mixing with nitrogen in lonely holes
Where neither seraphim or raindrops go
I see an old man wandering the halls alone
Only a full house gonna make a home

I became a thin blue stream
The smoke between asleep and dreams
And in that clear blue undertow I saw Royal City far below
Borders soft with refugees
Streets a'swimming with amputees
It's a Bible or a bullet they put over your heart
It's getting harder and harder to tell them apart
Days are nights and the nights are long
Beating hearts blossom into walking bombs
And those still looking in the clear blue sky for a sign
Get missiles from so high they might as well be divine
Now the wolves are howling at our door
Singing bout vengeance like it's the joy of the Lord
Bringing justice to the enemies not the other way round
They're guilty when killed and they're killed where they're found
If what's loosed on earth will be loosed up on high
It's a Hell of a Heaven we must go to when we die
Where even Laurel begs Hardy for vengeance please
The fat man is crying on his hands and his knees
Back in the peacetime he caught roses on the stage
Now he twists indecision takes bourbon for rage
Lead pellets peppering aluminum
Halcyon, laudanum and Opium
Sings kiss thee Hardy this poisoned cup
His winding sheet is busy winding up
In darkness he looks for the light that has died
But you need faith for the same reasons that it's so hard to find
And this whole thing is headed for a terrible wreck
And like good tragedy that's what we expect

At night I make plans for a city laid down
Like the hips of a girl on the spring covered ground
Spirals and capitals like the twist of a script
Streets named for heroes that could almost exist
The fruit trees of Eden and the gardens that seem
To float like the smoke from a lithium dream
Cedar trees growing in the cool of the squares
The young women walking in the portals of prayer
And the future glass buildings and the past an address
And the weddings in pollen and the wine bottomless
And all wrongs forgotten and all vengeance made right
The suffering verbs put to sleep in the night
The future descending like a bright chandelier
And the world just beginning and the guests in good cheer
In Royal City I fell into a trance
Oh it's hell to believe there ain't a hell of a chance

I woke beneath a clear blue sky
The sun a shout the breeze a sigh
My old hometown and the streets
I knew Were wrapped up in a royal blue
I heard my friends laughing out across the fields
The girls in the gloaming and the birds on the wheel
The raw smell of horses and the warm smell of hay
Cicadas electric in the heat of the day
A run of Three Sisters and the flush of the land
And the lake was a diamond in the valley's hand
The straight of the highway and the scattered out hearts
They were coming together they pulling apart
And angels everywhere were in my midst
In the ones that I loved in the ones that I kissed
I wondered what it was I'd been looking for up above
Heaven is so big there ain't no need to look up
So I stopped looking for royal cities in the air
Only a full house gonna have a prayer

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Ah, nearly a month again.

Excellent.

My folks are in town, sleeping in the next room. I know they mean well, but it's always nerve wracking when they come over - is everything clean? Will they find my DnD books? Will they find other things? What will they think about Sarah keeping stuff here?

*sigh*

I'm almost DONE with work this semester - four days after the semester ended. I still have a make up test to take and projects to finish. However, this semester was actually ridiculously successful, and I feel great about it. This next semester will be a glorious clusterfuck, full of joy and gnashing of teeth. =D

Congradulations to MC on graduating - you are both my shining star and light at the end of the fucking tunnel (is it a train?).

As for the rest of life - things are boring. I am boring. Welp. =(

Now, New Years - I want to have a party, see? So far the plans look like A) First Night for a few hours til about 7 or so (3-7?) then B) Coming back to my place for cookies, cakes, alcohol, and delicious pizza. Oh, party games or whatnot we can pull together. Come up with something interesting or I may have to go out and get a Wii - yes, this is a threat... =P

Or I can get an XBox 360 and Justin and I can ignore everyone all night again as we race to beat Halo 2... again. =( I promise the girl this year will be infinitely better than the girl two years ago. Sarah is a rocking hot lady. =D

Monday, November 27, 2006

A Graduate School Haiku



Ten things left to do
Again up a five A.M.
Study until dawn

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Happy Halloween!



Just a headshot of my costume.

Inspiration!